2am and I'm still awake...

Breathe (2am)
Anna Nalick


2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breahte

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe.

Long day

Yesterday was indeed stressful.. We rushed lola to the hospital at around 8am, di raw sya makahinga.. Good thing naman na nakaalis na kami sa mountains nun. kamusta naman kasi wala naman atang ospital na malapit samin. [ay meron pala pero if ever ako yung maoospital, ayoko dun madala noh..] sa East ave na namin sya naisugod and she's still in ICU right now.. sad. ang hirap pa ng walang pera.. sobrang naaawa pa ko kay mom, may sakit na nga sya tapos panibagong iintindihin na naman.

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iba pala pag sa public hospital. sa Delos Santos kasi usually nacoconfine si lola pero since emergency nga at wala narin talaga kasi kaming pambayad dun [may utang pa nga kami e], sa east ave nalang. na-stress ako kasi nasa ER palang si lola ang dami nang nirereseta. at ang mabait na doctor, paisa-isa naman kung magbigay! at ang masaya pa nyan, yung pharmacy dun nagpapanggap na pharmacy lang, lahat ng bilin ko WALA! freakening! biruin mo yun, ang layo ng lalakarin papunta dun sa pharmacy sa may gilid nung hospital tapos pagbalik ko panibagong prescription na naman. kaasar talaga yung pharmacy, kahit aspirin wala sila. feeling ko kahit band-aid walang tinda yun e. pag sa delos santos naman, wala ka ngang iintidihin during confinement pero pag dating ng bill ay kamusta naman, mas stressful!

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bad trip pa ko dun sa isang cashier. EPAL KA! pag naalala ko gusto ko syang balikan at sapukin e. grrr.. since aside sa kelangan kong lumabas para bumili ng gamot, kailangan ko pa magbayd para sa mga lab tests n gagawin kay lola. edi sympre nagmamdali ako. pag-abot ko nung bayad ko sa cashier [P1,000] tinitignan nya pa yung pera ko sabay sabi "FAKE!" [take note nakangiti sya ha!] ay naku talaga nagdilim ang paningin ko! inirapan ko talaga! [timang ba sya?! hindi nya ba narealize na ospital yun at ang mga taong nandon ay problemado o nagmamdali o may kmag-anak nang nasa peligro ang buhay at nakuha nya pang biruin ako ng ganon!!!!] ayun nakuha sa tingin, binilisan magsukli.. nung sumunod ako magbayad hindi nako dun pumila sa lane nya. kainis talaga! [ayan, nakasalubong talaga kilay ko habang nagttype nito. haha]

Had lunch with my digitel opismeyts. [lunch time lang hindi stressful na moment a..] Nabisita ko pa sa Mel at Nina.. :-) mas gumaan sana yung loob ko kung nanlibre si joey e. haha!

After lunch, i went to recto para magcanvass ng trophies, etc. [nawala ko kasi yung calling card nung binibilhan ko talaga]. okei lang sa biyahe kasi from ortigas, MRT to Cubao then LRT to Recto. pero stressful parin yung mga tao dun. lahat ng daanan ko sinisigawan ako, "ate pagawa ng resibo?" "miss, diploma" "anong hanap mo, miss?" ..yung isa bwisit tlga as in kada tanong nya palapit nang palapit ung mukha nya sa mukha ko, muntik ko ng sampalin e. natakot lang ako baka lalo ako ma-harass dun kaya tinakbuhan ko nalang.. ayun, from recto balik na uli sa hospital..

Postponed yung date namin ni May Coro today. dapat rin sleep over sya samin e. pero next week nalang siguro.. ayoko naman siyang yayain na sa hospital nalang kami magbonding. pero sana tlaga makapgmeet kami bago pa kmi mging busy-busyhan uli..